Mourning... Chapters 10 -12

    Days have become longer for me.  I don't know what to do with myself. I am full of remorse and guilt.  Nothing makes my day happy. Victor is never here.  I feel like I am always alone and like I have no one to turn to.  What am I supposed to do? Father is just as bad as me if not worse.  I wish Victor were here to comfort me but he's not he's never here and I have a feeling that he's never going to be here.  Is there anything in my life right now that's good? Please feel free to answer my question here because I'm out of answers.