My decision Chapter 20

I have decided that after my last entry I really do need to take preparation for a new life just in case Victor has found a new love.  If he shows me love thats all that I will need in order for me to stay.  If he shows me sadness and guilt I will leave this life and never come back.  I sent him a letter telling him of these occasions and I really hope that he takes note of them and cherishes the decisions that I have made.  I hope the letter gets to him soon if not then I will just have to sit here and wait like I have been doing for as long as I can remember.